April 13, 2016
(Before I started to blog, I decided that for safety and privacy reasons, I wouldn’t use my boy’s real names. Using their personalities, interests and their input, I decided on blog nicknames for them. So you’ll just have to guess what their real names are 😉 )
It’s my sweet Monkey Boy’s 11th birthday today!
I find it hard to believe that my ‘baby’ was born so long ago. It feels like just yesterday, and a million years ago all at the same time.
If you have kids, I’m sure you understand.
The one that ‘completed’ our family. The one I knew was missing, before God even knit him together in my womb. Our precious 3rd boy.
I didn’t even realize how much I wished he was a girl, until the ultrasound proved otherwise. And even then, it didn’t fully hit me. But one night in the Target parking lot, after buying some girl clothes for a friend’s daughter’s birthday, I was overcome with ugly tears, and those tears uncovered sadness, loss, and a desire I had never truly realized.
And after a good, long cry, I told myself that I needed to move on. Let go of the dream of having a daughter, and embrace this 3rd boy.
And I did, I have, and I haven’t ever stopped.
And I couldn’t love him more. This boy who made me a triple blessed boy mama has been making my heart grow every day with the way he loves others. Loves me. Loves God.
Words of affirmation are his love language. A lot. And since it’s a close second for me, his kind words fill me with love often. The way he thanks me for caring for him, says kind things about me, the way he sticks up for the ‘underdog’, is a friend of anyone he’s ever met, will talk with anyone and everyone…..he truly is a joy to be around. Even when he’s not. Because I know that even in the hard moments, he’ll come later and apologize for his unkind words, unkind attitude.
And someday that may happen fewer and farther between. But when I look at the way God has worked in his heart for 11 years, I don’t think he’ll change that much. And I pray that he doesn’t.
So, Monkey Boy…..Happy Birthday!
Thank you for being my triple boy blessing. My life wouldn’t be filled with as much joy if you weren’t in it.