and how I’m trying to be ok with it…..
Can I be honest? {oh…that’s right this is MY blog and I can do whatever I want here…lol!}
Let me be real honest……because that’s what you’re going to get here from me…honesty 😉
I HATE HOW MY BLOG LOOKS!!!!!
What was that? I’m writing a series about ‘Letting Go’ of my distractions and perfection infection? Oh yeah! And that is part of why my blog looks like it does…because I dove in head first (like I always do 😉 to writing every day for all of October (why couldn’t they pick a shorter month like April? lol!) and I had to quickly throw together a blog (I could write for 310 days about procrastination…but I’ll do that later…lol!)
But here’s where my progress shows…
A few months ago I found a service to set up and design your blog. It’s not cheap, but pretty reasonable. I talked to the hubs and he told me to go for it…but the more I thought about it, I realized that suddenly writing 31 posts in 31 days and making decisions about how I want my blog to look was just too much. I know me, and chances are, after I made all the decisions about the blog design, I’d be too stressed and overwhelmed to actually write! So here I am, writing for 31 days (which I am loving by the way!!!) posting to a blog that makes me cringe every time I look at it. Writing about battling perfection. And distraction.
The imperfect looking blog is a big distraction for me, friend.
Oh…the irony!
Trust me…I know God is laughing…again! But I hope I’m passing His test on this one. Because I sure do fail more of His tests than I ever should. But little by little, as I slow down and listen to the little voice inside, I’m starting to show some progress. Babysteps…but it’s something. And that is why, in November, after this writing series is over, I will begin to redesign my blog. And I can’t wait….but in the meantime, I’m going to keep looking at this blog and know that even though it’s imperfect…it’s good enough. And for me, for this season, that is good enough for me.
I switched a million times too. I think I have one now that everyone else has, but it works for me.